I love the words YES and NO. They are very absolute. It’s hard to defy the resounding stance of a person who is saying NO…..No means No! haha. But we don’t live in an existence where Yes and No are what they used to be. Now we have the descriptors of Maybe, Sorta and Ummm. Maybe it’s because were indecisive or just don’t want to offend, but it lets us participate without responsibility. Am I guilty of it? YES. See that wasnt that bad. Now we all do our little things that gray the line between yes and no…sometimes to prevent conflict, to appease, or even resolve. If you want a prime example of this you need to come to a bar. I’ve spent many a night writing about the dynamic of the local watering hole. Theres something to be understood about the humbling experience in a bar. At 5 in the afternoon you get to see a collection of people and their entourage that you get lost on the complexity of the gray. If you try to figure out the whos and whats, you end up more confused than anything, the key is to try to bounce from point to point in their conversations because there are subtle hints to the fluidity of them. Sitting here I’m listening to a conversation about a gent and his new girlfriend…speaking closely and underbreath…while not mentioning that he has another girl on the side. Thats the Gray. It may not be the most honest thing a man can do, but there’s no honor among thieves. And don’t get me wrong…there are women down here doing the same thing. It’s a game of sorts….a gray game.
I guess what my point is here is that we don’t live in a society of the absolute anymore…no more John Waynes or Sterling Haydens. We live in a dumbed down existence of grilles for your teeth and Toddlers and Tiaras. We dont have those stoic hardheads of the days of old. A hardhead is defined as a person that is stubborn and will not concede….but why is that a problem so much? What does it say about a persons resolve if they stand by something outside of the idea that “we all have to get along”. I want to bring back the idea that it’s ok to stand behind who you are, and screw the majority for the gray! Seriously…wouldnt it be better if you knew the confines of what you were told…and then decided to go beyond it? Thats what spawns innovation. Now that last comment may seem hypocritical, but in all reality it’s not. Being told Yes or No has inspired people form time before antiquity. Why? Because they wanted the YES…or defied the NO. There wasnt this …Gray…where they put on facebook how p.o’ed they were but did NOTHING but bitch about it. See my reasoning? We all have the ability to be great and inspiring persons…but we must deny that gray and understand whats important in our own development….either that or submit? And I will never ever submit.
Dirty White Walls 
Stand up and fight for what you believe. If you don’t like something change it. I find the human existence as a whole to be extremely dissatisfying. I find it hard to believe I could possibly be cut from the same cloth as most people. I get extremely discouraged on a regular basis when I see people focused on bullshit. Who takes the time to enjoy the roar of an engine, the feel of the sand in your toes, a walk on the beach. I want to stand up and yell and scream. I am discounted every day of my life at my job being the “odd” one. Being the one that is focused. Why? Because I dont have fake nails, or fake boobs, subscribe to religious bullshit, or jump on the fashion trends. I may not be your average run of the mill girl (pink and fake nails and filthy). I may not agree with you just to be liked but I promise I will most certainly give an earful…most likely not what anyone wants to hear.