If I have Pink eye, what do albinos get?

I think people are afraid of silence anymore.  Without being blasted by 100 different distractions a second people feel cut off.  It’s like we’ve all become so environmentally “thick” that when an absolute moment, and  I mean a moment, of peace and silence come to us….. we frantically search for some kind of diversion that will lead us back to the noise foundry so we can lose any thought of that “bad” place we were just in.    The hum of cooling fans in my computer, the expansion and contraction of the wood frame in my home, the confirmation of a bad seal in my commode…even the little water the seeps past makes a sound finding it’s destination.  My own heart beat, the inhale and exhale of my conscious body.  My dogs.   All of these are part of my environment right now.

I have only experienced that true silence a couple times in my life, the natural mute that must of what the universe was like before creation.  Sweet  is the best adjective I can muster for it.  There are better descriptors, but  then I would be back to complicating something so simple.  One of my previous vocations was working for the forest service in Utah, and there were many times I would spend chilly early spring nights in the backcountry. Silence there is almost perfect…but there are other things that make noise.  I’m not talking about bears , elk, wind, or anything else.   I’m talking about the night sky.  I think we’ve all lost our connection to it.  We live in such a horizontal existence, very rarely looking up above ( unless you live in Russia…I bet you they all look up more now). The night sky in the back country is like shaking a glass globe of silver glitter.   All of those stars and worlds that are bleached out by mans illuminated world come back into view.   So even in that silence of a cold Utah night,  the cosmos would speak volumes…but this was what I wanted to hear.  Language without words or texts…just experience.    I feel that we have become vessels for our own ego. Myself included, but when you look up at that darkness…and realize that our horizontal 2d life has depth…then this 3d image comes to mind of how small we are in the grand scheme of things.   That silence we may have in our environment is crushed by the awe and befuddlement of trying to comprehend our place in the universe.   I would rather have moments like this in my life than be intellectually under siege from the world at large.

My buddy Eric has this dog.  He’s one of those pups that has only a few things on his mind. 1. Where is the Ball?  2. Want to play Ball?  3. Please throw the ball again!     And they pretty much all fall in that order.   Something that Eric said to me really made me think of peoples existence.    “Everyday is the best day of his life”   Seriously, how many people could say that about their life. And here is this pup whos got it all worked out.  Why…cause it’s simple.  It’s not complicated.   It doesn’t involve anything more than being happy.     I always wanted to be hypnotized like in “Office Space”.  Just embrace that attitude that I really really do not give a rats ass about anything other than enjoying my life.

I dunno, I started out with a purpose writing this thing, but perhaps the time….or the pain meds have left me at the wayside once again.  I will leave you with this. Life can be too serious most of the time, and in a campaign to make it easier for the 99 percent out there, they have opted to take the intelligence out and replace it with entertainment.   They try to camouflage it, dress it up, liquor you up and do all they can to get you to believe in it.  The truth is that your mind is the one thing they can never take without your agreement.  See thru all the bullshit, live happy….